
i get cold, so i walk outside, you won’t leave, you follow behind, the ghost of your death it lingers in me, i stay away—and still you find me. you live in blood, you talk through veins, sometimes at night, my fingers can’t be tamed, they think about you, they start to cave, they can’ t sit still while you keep coming round me. They click along, they swerve their course, they make me crazy, they make me hoarse, i want to sleep, they keep me standing, i want to leave, but there’s no abandoning– you’re in my blood spreading through my heart— pumping me numb. you were an artist, and you were brilliant, your ivy league scholarships, your world could have been perfect. but fame didn’t suit you, you compromised, a renegade rebel, you gave me your eyes. and i don’t blame, no sir i don’t—i just wanted to come with. it’s all i’ve ever wanted —to be by your side, because you are my heart my head my spine-you are the beat thumping through every line, and that’s why i write–it’s the only time we can be side by side. Dear John Gilbert, I know you’re great, and though you failed me, you left a trace. the train is coming, we call her Dagny—it’s time you head back…. admit defeat and let me be lonely. i want to be lonely. Crayola wax—what’s left of your handsome devastating (i know deep down somewhere you adored me couldn’t live without me- i was the face that kept your body pumping, acknowledging life and flowing, even though you didn’t live long enough to hold me, explode your rage beauty and grace towards me. forgot to mention you love me, left without realizing how much your absence would haunt me….) face and story.
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that is so sad…
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This is sad , deep , philosophical and provoking !
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Thanks for the visit and like.
Beautiful writing. I love the flow and the experimental style. It was rather sad, but seemed to have something quiet and peaceful about it, at the same time.
Looking forward to seeing more; I’ll be checking out your other pieces!
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Was the failure his death or something else? The work is so filled with anguish and, what seems to be, confusion. The work moved me, confused me, and left me with questions unanswered.
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Heartbreaking. Beautiful. Powerful.
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Wrenching and powerful. I think I’d like it even better if I could hear you say it aloud. I haven’t looked around too much — do you have a place where you share any of the pieces you’ve written, as spoken-word?
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Woosh. I FELT that one all the way through. Seems like you exploded / poured yourself out onto the page. Wonderful. Sadly wonderful.
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That touched me so much.
Not many perople with so much passion and genuineness these days.
All i can say is thank you.
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this is soo sad…well written but passionately sad
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This is beautiful.
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This is so gut wrenchingly sad! Heartbreaking! And yet beautiful!!
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writing heals
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Profound.
The way you use slant rhymes gives it such a sing-song read…
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I’ve been hooked to your writing since I read the boy across the hall (that was a masterpiece). Love this too!
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intense. great writing, Coco
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In a word… BRILLIANT! You captured every emotion here. Wish I’d found you sooner.
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Heartbreaking–breathtaking. You are a writing writer, Coco. No mistake.
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Hi there, I nominated you for the Very Inspirational Blog Award. I think it’s a way to get exposure and circulation. If you wanna play, you choose 15 inspiring bloggers and link to them from your blog and say why you are nominating them. Then put in 7things that most people don’t know about you. You can look at mine if you need a format type thing, although I just winged it. Good Luck!
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Wonderful! I love the rhythms and beautiful observations.
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Honestly, I rarely read completely through other peoples posts… Dunno if it’s my lack of patience or time; but your held me. Thank you… Beautiful… Not so sad, but fragile. 🙂 Beautiful.
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your blog makes me smile so I have nominated you for an award. (hope it doesn’t take up too much of your time :o) ) more details here: http://howtoonlinedate.wordpress.com/2012/06/18/for-muah/
(looks like I’m not the only one…see above comment)!
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This is lovely, Coco. I can see I’m going to enjoy following your blog. And thanks for following me. On a much lighter note than Dagny,I’m glad you enjoyed my hot tennis hunks slideshow. If you have the chance, take the poll, I’d love to see what you think with “your eyes”
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I can definitely say I got chills & I nominated you for Seven Awards http://www.camgal.wordpress.com/seven-awards/🙂
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Beautifully expressed. Love the rhythm especially. It reminds me of Leonard Cohen.
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I’ve really been enjoying your blog.
I have nominated you for The Lovely Blog Award.
Please check it out at the following link if you wish to accept.
http://bty14.wordpress.com/2012/06/18/the-lovely-blogger-award/?preview=true&preview_id=128&preview_nonce=6cbd5de9d6
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Thanx for stopping by my site and signing up to follow my silliness. With 38,000 hits to my 2200, I should be following you, and will probably do so from time to time. Anyone shaped by Robert Heinlein must have something to say. My ego is warmed.
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nominated you for the Reader Appreciation Award!
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I nominated you for the versatile blogger award! =)
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Thanks for stopping by my blog and hitting the “like” button. Your writing has some wonderful rhythm to it and is very expressive, I like it.
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It looks like a “banshee lamento”
See you Coco
Johnatan
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A beautiful sad flow
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OMG. So beautiful. It sounds like you are once again possibly writing about someone from a past life? Someone now gone? Beautiful.
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Coco. I must say your have a way with words. I cannot describe what I felt inside as I read dagny, but I will tell you this, I felt something. .
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wow….an incredibly emotional piece of work. Such beautiful writing. Thank you for sharing….
And thanks for the follow…
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THANK YOU, CHEERS!
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you are the beat thumping through every line – I love this.
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Thanks Emma 😀
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thank you for following stellalaland.wordpress.com ! you are an incredible writer, following back xx
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My friend, I have never checked out your site until today and I want to first express how deep your heart has the ability to love. I don’t understand people most of the time because, most hide there hearts but your love is inspiring.
My favorite part of dagny was: “acknowledging life and flowing, even though you didn’t live long enough to hold me, explode your rage beauty and grace towards me”
I wanted to share a song with you I was listening to when I came across your blog. Much love,
-Luke
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you are so so so so kind. i really appreciate your words. i love this song, i’m so glad you shared it with me. and thank you again for your kindness. i really appreciate it. xxo
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Nice. Dunno if you’re into spoken word, but your writing would pair beautifully with some jazz. Or maybe rapped to some heavy beats. Depends on your style I guess. Getting on stage freaked me out, but I tried out some poetry with a jazz band, was really fun.
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good idea. i agree…..i’m a bit of an undercover rapper 😉
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your words leave an ache
only poets can give
and take
away
thank you for leaving them here today
jk
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Coco,
Thanks for visiting my blog. I don’t know what your past is, but i hope it was helpful or inspiring to you in some way. I love your writing, your darkness captivates me and I understand it! Great work, and look forward to reading more from you.
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it totally inspires me. you are very sweet. thank you friend
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Huh – wow. You’ve got something here…
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😀
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I LOVE YOUR UNDERGROUND STYLE OF WRITING. I LIKE HOW U EXPRESS YOURSELF
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THANK YOU THANK YOU 😀
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Amazing bit of writing, too good to be called a blog post – captivating and beautiful.
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gosh really? thanks so much
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You make me a little braver to be myself. You are original and amazing.
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that means a lot to me. thank you soooo much Abby Darling 😀
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again: wow. amazing.
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Love it…’nuff said
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