I sail

So strange, so sad
feelings come,  then they sail.
I say goodbye, I hold head high.

I won’t dip low [the way i did with him]
I won’t give in [the way i did with him]
I won’t break open [the way i did with him]
I won’t be hurt [the way i did with him]

But you are not him,
and you are here…

…standing in front of me, asking for a possibility.
[My boy of steel. My man of honor.
My perfect friend. My timeless soldier.]

My red lipstick face    sighs
all i want is for you to come inside
‘come in, be mine’.

So strange, so sad
I walk past you
feeling pridefully bad

Ache in my hearts head
Lack of bravery in the shade of my lips red

Still, I sail.

I sail
hoping there’s an imprint of my heart
in your hearts head

Head high, heart in hell—
i sail.