October 9, 2013 §
Did it hurt much, to love him?
It felt like someone sawed off my five highest points, to fit me
into a circular shape.
What did you feel, when you finally fit?
I felt dark, as though I’d lost all dreams to shine.
And when you left, did it cause much pain?
It felt like I’d lost all balance— I rolled meaninglessly with no point or edge to stop me.
Then, when you started to heal, did you feel a little stronger?
I realized—I was more than a star…
What were you?
I wasn’t just a shape. I could shoot across the sky—
Light up the whole world.
Does it hurt still? That you loved him?
It is the darkest gift— ever given me.